(This is one of the couple of thousand poems I’ve written about being bipolar. Out of those thousands, this one is probably the least TMI. This one was an attempt, on my part, to explain why I decided to stop medicating myself.)
I have no more 2 a.m. demons
pushing words through my soul
No madness to create poetry
on sheet after page of escape
No more hours of contemplation or
freedom wrapped between my thighs
Nothing to purge into metaphor
And nothing left to say
Lisa Marie Bowman
real poetic piece…
well put.
life is just amazing sometimes
what I do all day, every day, is help people with bpd (not my preferred terminology, however – I have coined FMIS, which stands for familial mood instability syndrome and is far more accurate, physiologic and meaningful than “bipolar 1″, bipolar 2″ and the rest of the nonsense most psychiatrists spew) who have been un- or mis-diagnosed for years. Its very difficult but very rewarding. Unfortunately, hardly anyone knows how to do it like I do, which really sucks for the millions of people I cant reach. It’s just so weird and wonderful how I’ve stumbled upon someone as brilliant as you are who also apparently understands this world so well. I must say, though, Lisa Marie, that I strongly disagree with your last line…
Jim
It’s difficult to be decades ahead of most other physicians and the medical establishment in general. The book I’ve always meant to write (and have partially written) is called “Bipolar Nation”; Among several postulates (all of which are actually truths) contained therein is the notion that mood instability is ever-increasing in prevalence, owing to genetic as well as behavioral factors. Unfortunately, it is seldom recognized and/or properly managed – and the results are often devastating for those afflicted directly as well as their loved ones [and in especially tragic cases, those who end up literally caught in cross-fire]. I’ve hoped that someday I’ll find someone who can help me complete what I strongly feel is an important mission and a calling. I’d like to think that maybe my communications with you (in addition to being very enjoyable and provocative to/for me) will inspire me to reach this goal.
PS: one more thing I’ve become certain of is that you are a beautiful person who your mother would be very proud of. I wish you happiness and fulfillment wherever your life takes you <3
Thank you, for both this comment and all the other comments that you’ve left me on this site.
You’re welcome, Lisa