Yesterday, I found myself trapped in a haze of ADD and it was all because it snowed.
Since, of course, I live in Texas, my response to this was to say, “What’s snow?” Well, apparently, it’s very white, it’s very cold, and it forces you to stay inside, watching Lifetime movies and old DVDs while posting too much information on twitter and generally trying to see how much you can annoy your older sister until she asks you if you’re interested in playing “the quiet game” for a little while.
(Incidentally, I don’t know about your older sister but mine turned out to be remarkably tolerant and I’m proud of her.)
It also keeps you from going to work and I know some people claim that’s a great thing but for me, it was really, really difficult. In fact, if not for the fact that my boss specifically called me to tell me not to bother to come in because he wasn’t going to come in, I would have braved the ice and snow just so I could spend some quality time answering the phoner and saying, “I’m afraid he’s not going to be able to meet with you today.” Scoff if you will but I would have happily done it and I regret not being able to do it because not going to work threw me off my routine and I spent most of yesterday in an ADD haze.
Like a lot of things, though, an ADD haze is only a bad thing in retrospect. While it’s occurring, it’s actually kinda fun. For instance, I spent a few hours reading three books at one time while an old Dracula film (Hammer’s Dracula A.D. 1972 to be precise) played on the TV and Siouxsie and the Banshees played on my laptop and the microwave zapped up one of those “super pretzels” that I love so much. Now you could argue that by doing 20 things at once, I end up truly experiencing not a single one of them but, to be honest, it’s so exhilarating at the time. It makes me love ADD.
Unfortunately, the exhilaration of ADD is always followed by the times when the entire world just seems overwhelming and all the thoughts in your mind start to you weigh down, making you feel like you’re trying to run through quicksand.
Things like going to my job, watching a movie, spending Friday night with a certain someone, blogging, spending a few hours a night on twitter, or watching some silly reality TV show — these are the things that I use to pull myself out of that quicksand. These are the things that I look at and say, “As long as I keep these things consistent, than I can force some sort of rhyme and reason on the chaotic mess that is my mind.”
The snow, as much as I loved it, took away all of my rhyme and reason for the day. Luckily, that afore-mentioned special someone was able to make his way to the house after he got off from his job and that helped to put me back on track.
But until he arrived, I found myself spending what seemed like an eternity watching the icicles outside of the den door get bigger and bigger and bigger. Seriously, I was scared to even let our cat near the door for fear that this one icicle would come to life and try to attack us. Here’s two pictures of it, courtesy of my sister Erin:
I mean, seriously — that thing was scary!
Well, today, the sun is out, the temperature is above freezing for the first time since last Monday, and the snow is slowly melting. And I know I should probably be happy but I’m sad to see it go. I’m a Texan and as much as it disrupted my routine, I know there’s a good chance I’ll never see this much snow again for the rest of my life.
But that’s life.
You’ve got the celebrate what you have when you’ve got it and be prepared to accept that everything goes away in the end.